Losing Euphoria

i'm not that happy now. why?

basically maybe the pms thingy that makes me so weak. but the truth is, there are probably so lots of reason that cause me gone so stress now.

health condition
1) my flabby body. haven't been exercising for so long. and not doing adrenaline rush activities for so long such hiking and running for miles?
2) my face. why on earth the pimples suddenly start to appear? i'm hating it so much. it give my face aches. need to but dalacin-t somewhere.
3) my mouth. i've got 5 ulcers. but alhamdulillah they are getting better. but still i can feel the pain after i brush my teeth. the infection grows from my throat to my ears and to my teeth and it effects my head that gives painful headache.

emotional condition
1) what happens lately in my family really affect me now you know? and i'm hardly show it because i don't know how to. and because of keeping it inside my head, it turns to be a massive headache and emotional breakdown.
2) stress of being left? and you would get confuse who is actually the friend of yours and who's not. tired of pleasing people out. whatever.

relationship matters
1) this is about a guy. we always fight but the reason is so lame. or is it me who the only one who think the reason is lame? the reasons were such as late replying messages and some my silly mistakes. it got me nerve-wrecked really bad. and i'm about getting tired of having serious relationship with people. oh my.
2) this have to deal with a boy. it is two different persons between that guy and that boy. i don't know why but i'm tired of letting he throw stories of my bad to my friends whom he just met her only for a while.

psychological and mental breakdown
1) i moved to a room next to a not-so-nice room. but somehow, maybe there are reasons how we can end up there. maybe Allah want to make our inner self and spiritual more powerful. insyaAllah.
2) crisis between choosing my concentration. it is hard when all your beloved people get intervene in your decision making. feels like being intruded much? you want to take A, but your parents want you to take neither A. *kadang2 terfikir sampai bila hidup ini orang lain yang buat decision*

economical crisis
1) my plenty of money suddenly gone and gone! at first i was so surprised and frustrated about this. i'm not into shopping so much and i don't buy stupid things anymore but why on earth my money suddenly gone?! and i started to remember how much money i used during the holidays. taking my driving license and i pay for half of it. and repairing my laptop which costs a lot. and my salary diminished in a second because of puasa and raya celebration. but i think i used it vastly for managing baksis ? gosh. i spent a lot in padang besar. but not that much actually. oh my, where all my money gone?
2) oh my beloved maslin muntari and husna mustafa, please please after this no more lavish meals. huu so sad. but we need to save up for our future right?

outdoor activities
1) what do you feel when you are so excited to do your ever dreamed activities but suddenly your beloved people come to block your desire? startled huh? and believe me you will become so confuse on which one to choose.

and and and many moreeeee yang i dah tak larat nak tulis macam mana.

long list right?

but all of it does make sense of how not happy i am now.

=/