If only

If only you could understand, i would stop being me.








How to say this to your parents?



Is it necessary for me for being sulking for not being able to go for family vacation?


What if they know how frustrated i am after being left for many times? 

It is because of the class schedule that overrated and i hated it because i can't do any truancy since i was child as both my parents are teachers.

I think i had sacrificed my passion enough for the sake of my parents though.

I stopped dreaming of becoming an architecture or an artist, and stepped out of the fantasy, and allowing myself to learn biotechnology.  

What is biotechnology anyway? o.O

And i hold my guts NOT to learn biotechnology engineering which i thought i would prefer that much more than learning theories in biotechnology here in Kuantan. 

Why? Because my mom would never ever allow me to stay in Gombak. The biotechnology engineering is in Gombak campus. 

And i kept telling myself it is alright it is okay it is the best for you as Allah want you to be ONLY here, near to your parents.

And if there are programs that successful to drag me in, i would consider my parents too.

If they knew that i would never ever can join any family vacation, i think they should let me go to any programs i wanted to go so much.

Isn't that fair enough?




I don't know.



And this me growing up with frustrated in my heart.




And this is me that being born as a rebellious and stubborn young girl that loves to do everything on her own.





If only you could understand, i would stop being me.