Once Upon A Time

today i had felt two different feelings about two different things.

first thing is.

when i touched those hand socks bought by my mom, i felt different. and the feeling touched my heart so much. the feeling grew bigger and greater when i sought for my old collections of hand socks in the cupboard. and suddenly i felt so sad. so sad that i have totally changed myself.

as remembering those old memories in schools where i once was a good loyal muslimah girl. and i even got an honor from my school for having a very nice behavior. the award is Anugerah Akhlak dan Budi Pekerti Mulia. oh gosh. was it really happen before? =.='

second thing is.

i sought for my first semester lecture notes as in genetic course which i taking this semester, there are slight overview about null hypothesis, probability and chi square method which i learned maybe from biostatistic course that i'd taken during first semester. and guess what?

i found too many notes and i kept thinking on how hardworking i was. there were tonnes of self notes written by me and there are likely we were having discussion on the notes paper. me, maslin, iman and una. and i always wondering how i could get for biochemistry an A as it was a tough subject actually. and yes, i claimed that these words are true : Allah will help you by looking at your efforts and determinations. 

ohh and i remembered how disaster we were during final exam first semester. when studying calculus, maslin and i were craving like hell and clawing and scratching the wall for having no more guts to study. so terrible. and we survived luckily. alhamdulillah.

and why am i writing this? i'm not sure.

maybe actually silently in my heart i am hoping that i could change to be a better girl.

tapi, mampu ke?

nak jadi macam ni balik boleh tak? =(