Saturday 31 March 2012

Why we love Oprah ?


Oprah Winfrey came up from a very humble background without knowing that she would become one of America’s most influential women. Being born to an unmarried teenage mother on 29 January 1954 in Kosciusko,Mississippi was only a piece of junk in her life. Oprah Winfrey spent her first ages in a very poor condition with her grandmother, Hattei Mae in an animal farm. Although she lived in poverty, her grandma taught her to read and write at an early age of 3. Her name should be Orpah Gail Winfrey instead based on the bible, but the relatives could not pronounce it correctly and changed to Oprah. She was labelled as The Little Speaker in church and been known ad the gifted child. And she even skipped 3 grades in school for having the abilities beyond the normal kids.

At age 6, Oprah moved to Milwaukee to live with her mother, Vernita Lee in a small room of a woman’s house. Her mother was accepted to be maid in the house and she only give her attention on Oprah at nights. But, it was so seldom of it as she would always be really tired for entertaining her. Oprah was unhappy and Vernita knew that, so Vernita sent Oprah to live with her father, Vernon, a barber and businessman and her step-mother Zelma in Nashville. There, she somehow changed her life little by little when she became a hardworking girl by doing addition and subtraction qquestions every day and attended Sunday School and recitations in church nearby.

Suddenly, her sole mum called and told her she was pregnant and expecting babies. Oprah was needed there for taking care of her mother and she went back to Milwaukee. There she lived with her half sister and after two years, her mother had a baby boy. When Oprah was nine years old and was baby-sitted by her nineteen years old male cousin, she got raped by him. This was the first time Oprah being sexually abused as black African-American women don’t get any rights years before this. They were treated like slaves and molested each and every time. The same things happened to Oprah as after the first sexually abused, she had been repeatedly molested by her male relatives and also her mother’s live in boyfriend.

After those incidents happened, she became a quiet girl and never told any soul about it because the predators told her to silence for avoiding trouble. Vernita Lee realized that she had changed her habits and became more stubborn, so her mother did sent her to girls home but then all the beds were full. Oprah continued to acting out as she could not discusss the abusement with her mother. She skipping school, stealing money from her mother, dating with older boys and running away finally at the age of thirteen although she was so fammous in  Lincoln Middle School in downtown Milwaukee. Gene Abrams, her teacher transferred her to Nicolet High School, an all white school in Glendale, Wisconsin. At Nicolet, she was the only African-American student and it was a hip to know black student.

 At the age of fourteen she left her house permanently and was sexually promiscuousing herself for gaining money. Oprah’s mother can’t figure it out and sent her to live once again with her father in Nashville ,Tennessee. She discovered she was pregnant and only told her parents until she was in her 7th  month. After giving birth to a baby boy who died in infancy, she took this death as a second chance for her to live back on track again, she kept followed her father directions . Her father was very strict and made aducation as the first priority of Oprah. She was given her first curfew hours, new clothes, a set of rules, and some tasks like  she had to read and do a book report each week, as well as memorize five new words each day. If she hadn’t done her tasks, she would not be given foods. “As strict as he was”, says Oprah, “he had some concerns about me making the best of my life, and would not accept anything less than what he thought was my best.”  

Oprah had good study habits and probably came from one of the most influential people in her life, Mrs. Duncan, her fourth grade teacher. Oprah was also elected school president and met with president Richard Nixon being apart of public speaking classes in her high school. At 16, Oprah read Maya Angelou biography book, I Know Why The Caged Birds Sings and saying “I read it over and over, I had never before read a book that validated my existence.” Doctor Angelou became a very close friend to Oprah and kept her focusing in her education and public speaking. Oprah’s talent would take her place as she won an Elk’s Club speaking competition, earning a 4 year old college scholarship as the prize. She was voted The Most Popular Girl in school and got a full scholarship to Tennessee State University to study communication when she won oratory competition.



At the age of 17, Oprah won Miss Black Tennessee beauty pageant and was offered an on-air job at radio station, WVOL. They gave her job of reading news. She started taking a degree in Speech Communications and Performing Arts in Tennessee State University. At a moment, the local CBS television station offered her a job as a co-anchor. She kept rejecting it for about three times but then finally spoke to her speech professor about it. He told her that this was her chance to launch her career. At age nineteen Oprah finally accepted the job and went to the interview pretending that she was Barbara Walters. Oprah worked late into the night and also studying for college during the day. She carried out her work on television pretending that she was Barbara Walters until one day she just started to laugh in the middle of the broadcast. Her boss was not impressed.At 19, she becomes anchor of Nashville's WTVF-TV station and leaves Tennessee State University to be the first female African-American news anchor in Nashville.

A few months before she graduatting her degree, she quitted study and work fulltime at Baltimore as a reporter but she got fired for being emotional while reporting. Her boss set her up as a co-host of a morning talk show called “People Are Talking”and she made the show more popular soon after that. In 1981 she took the advantage of  sending the talk show tapes to A.M. Chicago. And finally the Chicago talk show offered her a job of hosting her first nationally boardcasting show called “The Oprah Winfrey Show” and by that time, everything went so perfect for Oprah until now.  With its placement on 120 channels and an audience of 10 million people across the board, the show gained $125 million by the end of its first year, of which Winfrey received $30 million.

As we read through out Oprah Winfrey’s life, we would soon discovered on how much hopes she had to gave out in order to become like the one in present.  Her childhood was a terrible experience one could ever imagine. She had been molested by many relatives bu still she could find her way back. She managed to struggle with a died infancy at the very young age which i found it was very hard to do that. Oprah is a good-natured person who has a very hight patience towards unbelievable events and very tolerance with changes. This is a very good example of a leader. Furthermore, she is a religious one who never fails to believe in everything God sent to her. It was like she was lying her hopes on God since the beginning as she loves to recite Bible in church. She never give up from small until she became adult.

And as for me, she is a visionary person as she able to give up her graduate school and fulfill her dreans to become a host for TV shows. She never afraid of taking risks in her life as she said “the biggest risk is to take no risk”. In 1987, the show received three Daytime Emmy Awards in the categories of Outstanding Host, Outstanding Talk or Service Program and also Outstanding Direction. The following year, the show received it’s second consecutive Emmy as Outstanding Talk/Service Program, and Oprah herself received the International Radio and Television Society's "Broadcaster of the Year" Award. She was the youngest person ever to receive the honor as she have positive attitude towards every consequences that may happen.




Furthermore, she is a generous and kind-hearted woman who always use her wealth to help others. After filming a Christmas program in South Africa, she established the Oprah Winfrey Leadership Academy for Girls, near Johannesburg. Her generosity has extended not only to her favorite charities, but to her loyal viewers. She celebrated the beginning of her 20th season on national television by giving every member of the studio audience a brand new Pontiac automobile.

I like her pretty much as she always stand up the human rights such as women’s rights and children welfare. She is one of the most braverest woman on Earth as she often spoke  about these topics in her show publicly. These all happened because she had enough experiences about the failure and disabilities in life. She also got influence over the way people around the world to read, eat, exercise, feel and think about themselves and the world around them. She appears on every list of the world's leading opinion-makers, and has been rightly called "the most powerful woman in the world."

More over, she used her power intensively and beneficially. This was proven in the 2008 presidential election, Oprah publicly endorsed a political candidate for the first time, hosting a fundraiser for Senator Barack Obama and appearing with him at campaign events. It is widely believed that her support was crucial to his winning the Democratic nomination. Besides, she made a good business partner when she join broadcasting venture with Discovery Health Channel and to be renamed as Oprah Winfrey Network. She now publishes two magazines, O, The Oprah Magazine, and O at Home. The launch of her first magazine was the most successful start-up in the industry indicated when Forbes published its list of America's billionaires for the year 2003, it confirmed that Oprah Winfrey was the first African-American woman to become a billionaire.

She also explains beauty to the world as being perfect from inside and outside. Beauty is not just about physical appearance, it consists of subjective definitions regarding on how the whole world sees you and how successful  you are to become the best person you wanna be. Her success led to nationwide fame and a role in Steven Spielberg's 1985 film, The Color Purple, for she was nominated for an Academy Award for Best Supporting Actress. In 1998, Oprah Winfrey was named one of the "100 Most Influential People of the 20th Century" by Time magazine, and received a Lifetime Achievement Award from the National Academy of Television Arts and Sciences. She eventually measured as the highest paid performer on television, the richest self-made woman in America, and the richest African-American of the 20th century.

 This world is very fortunate if she also have faith in Islam religion and helped in expanding Islam victory across the board. And surely Allah will grant her with many blessings and goodness in the world and Hereafter.

Hamba Yang Pilu



Ya Allah, 
Kau kembalikanlah diriku pada-Mu ya Allah. 
Kau ambillah diri ini kembali ya Allah.
Hamba Mu yang hina ini ya Allah.
Kau kembalikanlah aku pada-Mu ya Allah.
Hamba ini yang maha lemah maha kecil menghadap Mu ya Allah.
Berat hati ini ya Allah.
Sentiasa berat dan lemah dan mengharapkan hanya pada Mu ya Allah.
Kerna hidup ini terlalu menyeksa.
Menyeksa jiwa dan raga ini ya Allah.
Ingin ku lepas tapi apakan daya amalan ku masih sangat sedikit jika dibandingkan dengan dosaku yang menggunung ya Allah.
Terlalu pedih dan lelah dan aku semakin lemah ya Allah.
Berikan kekuatan padaku yang Maha Agung.
Kupuji kebesaran-Mu yang menggunung dan melangit ya Allah.
Agar kau tarik diriku kembali pada-Mu ya Allah.
Ku pohon keberkatan Mu ya Allah.
Ampuni dosa diri ini yang kerdil dan hina ya Allah.
Ya Allah.
Kembalikan diri ini kepada-Mu ya Allah.
Tak daya ku tanggung hidup yang sebegini ya Allah.
Ambilku ke jalan hamba-hamba yang dirahmati Mu ya Allah.
Kupohon kupohon kupohon keampunan yang tidak layak untuk kuucap kepada Sang Pencipta dunia.
Kerna diri ini telah banyak leka dalam kehidupan yang sekejap ini.
Kerna diri ini banyak terpedaya dengan nafsu syaitan yang tidak henti2 mendatang kepadaku ya Allah.
Ampuni dosa ini ya Allah.
Ampuni hamba Mu yang lemah ini ya Allah.
Ampuni ku ya Allah.
Ku memohon pada Mu ya Allah.
Sebelum ajal mendatang kau kembalikanlah diri ini kepada-Mu ya Allah.
Ku insafi diri ini walaupun sungguh taubat ini kadang kala terhenti ya Allah.
Ku hanya mampu mengharap pada-Mu ya Allah.
Kuatkan iman di dada ini sentiasa ya Allah.
Tegarkan jiwa yang mudah bergetar ini ya Allah.
Kebalkan raga yang terumbang-ambing ini ya Allah.
Ku mengharap pada Mu ya Allah.
Ku mengharap pada syurga Mu ya Allah.
Bimbinglah diri ini kembali ya Allah.
Kembalikanlah diri ini pada Mu ya Allah.





Thursday 29 March 2012

2011 Left More Wisdom Than Memories



i am now staring at the laptop for doing my assignments (lots of it!) but i don't even get the mood and i have no ideas at all and i am so bored looking at those facebook's stuffs.


and then after prayer, i remembered on how my life would ever be if Allah didn't put any hardships and obstacles  on my way.


i feel like a very different person now in 2012 regarding on how fragile i was in late 2011.


these somehow put me in tears but crying doesn't mean we are weak right? lots of thing happened in 2011 but i don't have the guts to write about it before this.


what happened in 2011?


january 
i was fully recovered from a major broke up that i had been longing for a guy for about 4 years. we weren't having special relationship either but we were in love since 16 years old. the guy who broke my heart always hurting me and i was getting stronger, but still i told everyone that i was with this guy. a sudden thing happened when he was finally in a relationship with a good friend of mine in late 2010. this was one of the most critical pang ever for me and i was very heartbroken and disappointed with everything. then, a new guy came up to me. and we became friends. and after a while, we began to like each other but i was in fear to fall in love again. however, girls hearts are like jelly. although it is elastic and spongy, it can be tear apart. so in january 2011, i was fall in love again. 


my family and i moved from kajang into our old permanent house in kuantan. alhamdulillah. grateful to Allah.
although my parents needed to wake up early to go pekan for working, it wasn't a big deal because being at home away form kuala lumpur with jams and all those things are my parents first priority.


i entered IIUM kuantan with girlfriends and a BIG hope. to be an excellent one. but somehow, my batch asked me to hold the post of assistant batch leader which never came up into my mind before. i was just accepting it with confounded self. somehow, i had many friends to support me form behind.


february
struggling with ownself. to study harder and harder. living alone in a postgraduate room is a bit creepy for the first time and so exciting after that. you got your own space and no one can bother you. i was so lucky for having maslin at the room next door. 


and my new love began to bloom but we were in the complicated state. not having any yet. still reminiscing how we could be like this. we were good to each other. and i was good for the time being.


march
life became harder. my crush and i often came up to a big war and it hurted too much. we were like giving up on each other but we still holding on it no matter what. things became normal back after my birthday. just imagine how our relationship when we never met each other after we are liking each other. and we had trust on each other.


midsem exam was coming up and me, iman, una and also maslin so busy catching up on all those subjects. the result was pretty good and alhamdulillah.


april
it was like he was already bored with me for not seeing each other and i knew i didn't made any effort to meet him. and he got new friends. and i was so damn busy with those batch's things and programs and he hated me for not spending time on him. and he also hated me every time he viewed my facebook profile as there always be boys posting and sharing something on my wall. and he kept babbling on me about guys who bumped and fallen on me before before and before ahead. i had no idea how he got the information but all of those were true. 


and a scandal involving me and a guy suddenly came up in my class and i was so deep deep anger with them but still within my patience. it was frustrated when you are being match up with a guy but actually you are in love with others right?


may
i was being overwhelmed with those defamations and slanders and made-up stories and it made me down during my final examinations week. but i played my part well for studying hard but not that hard and trying to be positive on any circumstances. and one of the most heartbroken one was when my crush started to ignore me. and he loves to ejek2 me and perli2 me you know. ohh i hate him so much now when i remember this. huh!


see, i was very nothing last year. all i did was making a small problem became unsettled one. but i was very grateful for having nice good friends always and always.


june
a 5 months holidays started. i planned on working but my parents didn't allow me. so i just lived at home and being a good girl. i learned how to cook and trying hard on new recipes. but suddenly, a big thing came up between me and him. and i was officially declared myself as heartbroken. this was not an easy thing to forget as i got nothing to do at home. admit it, when we are not busy, we tend to think of something more and more often right? i was a late night crier (penangis?) and my days were very pale. i'd got no friends to be talked to as some of them were busy working. but there were some people would listen to me and give advice on me. although he always trying to catch me back but somehow i kept reminding myself that this thing will never work out as we were so far away. june was devastating and i was trying hard to pull myself again.


july
it was his birthday and i don't know either i should wish or not. but i did. that was the horrible celebrations i ever did i think. HAHAHA. and i became more powerful in handling kitchen and it's utensils. long days waiting at home made my adipose tissue became alive and grew fast. really need to think on how losing it.
nothing more happened or it was me who forgot all things that happened. erkk.


august
i was taking my driving license and until now my parents didn't allow me to take the jpj test. and i don't know why. liar, i know why. ramadhan was coming and i was very grateful as after 7 years living in hostel, this was the first ramadhan i celebrated with my family at home. and i was so glad because we never bought any foods and cuisines from bazaar ramadhan. wow, that was fantastic enough as i also learned on making kuih-muih in kampung style such as pengat, begedil, ondeh2 buah melaka, ketayap, kuih kacang and many more.


september
holiday was finished and coming back to uia for starting 2nd semester. nothing much happened in the very first2 weeks but i just wanna tell you that i had gave up some money for something. masyaAllah. well, having a new roomates consisting iman, una and isza. we dined together and going out together. 


october
1st october: iman left me in iium alone. not all alone,but still i felt alone at the moment. my life was horrible and  murky no one could ever imagine. maybe i was depending on her too much since we were in secondary school. i have nothing in mind at that time and i almost forgot the heartbroken thing due to this matter. 


i was bumped on someone and i don't even know why i liked him a lot. he was nice and i really wanna changed myself when thinking of him. it was like i want him for the rest of my life? err err geli geli. haha. daydream.


and i went to kenyir exploration with arc members. and i forced rahimi to accompany me. and there was lots of thing happened in kenyir. and there was this young man who keep joking and disturbing me and i really don't know why and i was thinking what should i do with this man and if i go against him, i know that all those seniors would end up hating me. and i don't know what mistake i have done to them when some seniors glanced on me and i was like whooaaa please stop these all !


november
midsemester exams were coming and i was bluntly sit for those exams and alhamdulillah i managed to get good result although my life was wracked. 


and a guy wanna know me and he was my male friend's bestfriend and i was just okay just get to know each other then. and my new crush didn't came up for a long time and i don't know why. and just so you know that i was still battling myself to focus and be firm in this life.


disember
and it was horrible terrible when we had problems with our friends. it really tore me up but i was being patience and isolating myself from the public. problems kept coming and the older problems got forgotten. whatever. 




my life was a crack a year before, and i an hopping that this year would bring me prosperity and current obsession towards my course. this year i get myself busy so that i don't have the time to think any stupid nonsense memories ever happened to me. hehe.





Tuesday 20 March 2012

GEMOK



Oleh kerana sekarang sudah sangat tak sempat nak berjogging dan beraktiviti fizikal, saya menggemok.


Setiap hari kelas habis pukul 7 petang.


Setiap hari kelas start awal around 8.30 until 9.30.


Jadi?


Tak sempat. Nak buat yoga pun rasa macam tak sempat.


Jadi?


Menggemok lagi di tengah hari dgn memakan nasi with a big amount kalah lelaki normal.


Macam mana tu?


Saya suka tambah nasi 3 kali.


Sebab?


Sebab saya perlukan tenaga yang banyak utk menghadapi hari2 yg mencabar.


Namun,


Saya tidor awal lately dalam pukul 12.30 malam.


Jadi?


Tenaga yang saya makan itu tidak digunakan sebaiknya dan bertukar menjadi lemak konkrit dalam badan.


Sekian.



A Week of March

monday : una's birthday


tuesday : my birthday and also ameera's. ungs exam.


wednesday : iman's birthday. 


thursday : fauzana's birthday. enzyme's exam.


friday : halal haram's exam. submit halal haram's and enzyme's assignment. 




= D

lambattttttttttttttt =P

FATINNNNNNNNNN FARHANAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA LAMBAT WISH BIRTHDAY SAYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA !   = (

The end of a friendship


just a simple and short story.

i had a gang once upon a time. a girls clique can we say it? it consisted of 5 people. me and my four other friends. we went to class together. we would waited for all of us to gather first and went together to many places.  we had been such very supportive for one another. we ate lavishly together. we studied together. we sometimes copycat each others works together. we felt we were so cool to hang up together. sometimes we hanged out with our boyfriends. sometimes we hanged out with our male classmates. we had known each other's story although we just meet each other not longer than 5 months.

things started to change when one of us, A , further her studies in egypt. taking medical course. she was the one who the closest to me cause we came form the same secondary school. so, for second semester, there were only 4 of us left here.

one of our friends, B , would like to befriend with us. so we went class together during the second semester. the 5 of us. we were good and very good. we became crazy together and always karaoke together. we loved to play games. all of it was so wonderful until a thing happened.

one of us, C , was my roommate. only both of us share the big room which should consist of 4 people. so our room was big enough for all 5 of us to play around and gossiping and doing other stuffs together.

the problem started when B kept telling me about the badness and the wickedness of my roommate C. at first i just ignore her comments and babbling. but until one point, i just can't get myself with her. i mean the C. i don't remember how we start to quarrel, but we seriously had this fight in our room. i just being quite and she was doing the same. we fought for about a week, and i was the one who settled it first.

when C and i became nice as before, the B got jealous. but she couldn't do anything caused i and C were roommates and we so closed. 

and then, B started to become so-close-like-only-my friend-is-hers. and now i am telling you about D. among 5 of us from the beginning, i was so close with D after A moved to egypt. it is like, pooja with D, B with E (the other friend of mine). but when B came, we just befriend as sincere as only God knows.

B started to get D away from me. and she talked about my bad to D. how could she right? she always took D's hand and moved away from me, leaving me alone. i am not lying to you. so bach that time, i was being myself alone but i don't really care about it. because when i cared too much, some of my friends told me that i was looking so terhegeh-hegeh towards D. yeah. it sounds harsh. but that's the truth. and it changed me.

during our 3rd semester, something BIG happened and it realllllyyyyyyyy change us. a very sad thing. very very very sad thing. it hurted us. eeach of us. hurted deeply and felt like dirobek robek you knowwwww. i don't really wanna tell what the event is but frankly this friendship got affected so much. sedihhhhhh sangat3. but we always keep in mind that everything has hikmah right?  the conclusion of semester 3 is horrible. that is : 
1) B got expelled from the college
2) D and i got split
3) C and i got together back
4) only left the three of : me, C and E.


:'(


we will never know when we will end this friendship with people. 


i learned my lessons. so in this matter, whenever we get together even until now, the pain is still there. after semester 3, there were lots of things happened. it is too hard for telling those. and i just wanna keep it safe in our memories so that when we reach our down parts, we will remember back those black ship avenues.


whatever it is. the one who wants to still be remained is the one who will remain until the last of us. although there are too many obstacles come along this path of life, they will keep supporting us until their last effort.


thanks for always being there for me since 2009 until now Aida Hanisa Ruslan and Fauzana Muhamad. Not forget Muhammad Alif Ishak, Rahimi Ashraf , Mamu Hafiz, Abdul Wafiy Usolli who keep staying behind my back always and always and always. Hikhikhik geli pulak aku kan cakap mcm ni untuk korang =.=''


Alhamdulillah for the time being ya Allah  =)